Think that it is very hard for someone to pretend so as to leave a good impression on people. Why can't we just be ourselves? Want to talk then talk, don't feel like it then don't do it. Very tiring to act to be an interesting person so everyone will be on good terms with you. I really feel bad for this kind of people, I rather be myself. Haha.

Second week of internship is coming. Hope I can get used to this kind of lifestyle soon. Also, hope I can enjoyed more there.

Went to RSAF open house today, it a last minute decision and there we go. Crowd was plenty but luckily, the weather was not bad so walking around was not very torturing. Did all those must do stuff like boarding planes and air performace. There was a helicopter which I failed to board after 2 times because the queue is really not moving at all. After waiting a while, we decided to give up and move on. Ok, time to sleep, tomorrow is a long day.

When you are just focusing on one side, it is very easy to neglect the other side. Slightly disappointed that this had happened and the situation is obvious to me now. If they don't want it, why should I continue to do it? Right? Only causing more problems for myself. Haha. I have tried but not appreciated. Not your fault but mine as I failed at many aspects. Haha

First week of intern finally done. Basically, didn't really do much and I am definitely the slackest around the NTU interns. Can't compare to some NUS ones as some are really slacking for the whole day. It's good to be serious at intern but I am not. Next week should be a busy one so, i better rest more for this weekend before work comes. Anyway, known quite a few of NUS friends and all of them are very friendly which makes the initial part easier to get pass.

Really don't understand them sometimes. Even don't understand myself sometimes. Try to think what you have done to make the person do that and not just blame the person.
After work, went for dinner with the tiger nsf, too bad Desmond can't come for the dinner but still very happy to have a chance to gather together again.

On the first day on internship, we are told that we will be having a presentation workshop on the 3rd day and we need to prepare a presentation with just 2 days. Luckily, I used my past project and managed to smoke through.

Getting to know the fellow interns more better and many are more friendly then I thought. Haha. Hope to know what to read tomorrow, other NTU students have been reading up so much and only I am not sure what to read. Without a correct direction, I cannot start reading because I do not want to waste time reading unnecessary stuff.
Feel quite irritating at times. Trying not to care so much.

Ever since intern starts, I have been very tired everyday and sleeping earlier and earlier. From 2am before intern to 12am after intern. Really so tired, maybe I am not used yet. Time to sleep!

First day of intern over. Supposed to read up but my supervisor didn't provide me with any reading material so, I have to look for myself and I don't even know if they are relevant. The task given is definitely too tough for me but I will still try before asking my supervisor.

Same intern but different life. In the room, there are NUS computing students as well but they seems to have nothing to do and talking from morning till end of work. I am reading my stuff at my table and the noise they made seldom stop for long before they started talking again. Why they got nothing to do? Weird.
Hoping second day will be much better than today.

Few more hours and I will be reporting for my first day of internship. Feel like going back to NS days because I cannot use camera phone. Luckily, my old Nokia phone is still working well and so, for the next 10 weeks, my wildfire will be taking leave. Haha.

Just came back from midnight soccer, feeling quite shag now. Really must admit that I am getting old already, body can't take it and I get tired more and more easily. This time, I feel damn tired only after the first game. Panting like don't know what. Haha.

Earlier in the day, went to open a UOB account. It's mainly for the dinning privileges that it offers. Since 2 of my friend has CITIBank card then I just open UOB. So now, if we go out, we can enjoy both banks privileges. So good!
If that is what you want, that is what you get. Don't disturb me. Haha.

Today took photo from Kong, now I have full size photo of previous outing with the NTU friends. So happy. I have been wanting to get them since long ago, finally got it.

Exam is over but I am still torturing my brain and I think I am spending more time and brain power on it compared to school work. So difficult, almost giving up already. Maybe I think too much, worry too much or don't know what too much. Haha.
Okay, complained enough and time to return back to try to make friend with it.

Although I have said I don't care, but it really is not easy to not care. Back to square one then. My usefulness maybe much smaller than someone else but I hope it could still leave an impact, no matter how small it is.

Firstly, I like to say Hi to those reading this pictureless blog if there's any. Haha.
Recently, I don't feel like talking to a few of my good friends. I don't dislike them but currently just don't feel like talking to them. They are my good friends nevertheless and very soon, I will be wanting to talk to them again but now is not the time yet. No mood.

Election ended so long ago and I kept forgetting to post a photo which was very badly taken.



As you can see the bus is carrying the newly elected MP of Pasir Ris. Initially, I thought they would turn into the main road then, I could take a more direct shot but who knows, they move straight into the side road and I quickly snap a photo before they're gone. Maybe the next time I see them will be 5 years later. Haha.

Looking at my post history, I realised my post count this year has already surpass last year. Don't know what am I doing for 2010, why did I update so little times? Funny. I will definitely try to post as much as possible so, stay tune for more boring posts.

What luck? Yesterday ate something wrong and I got allergy to it. Last night, my face is swollen and press any part of my face will create some pain. My hands till now is numb. Super sian.

Then, I went to see a doctor in the morning and at the registration counter, the person told me that my last visit was at 2005. Which means the last time I went to polyclinic was when I'm in JC. Thinking back, I only remembered I went there once and it was when I overslept and don't feel like going to school. I tried to geng for MC but I really think it was super obvious that I am faking. So lame.

Going into the doctor's room, can't help but notice his desktop wallpaper is Nicole! Omg, uncle doctor likes Nicole haha. He kept saying my condition is interesting because it's his first time coming across food allergy. But isn't this quite common? I don't know, maybe it's not. Haha.
Just for your information, I highly suspect is the abalone i ate yesterday, the rest is the same as before. Maybe I can't take that brand of abalone? Or maybe the cause is not that? I still don't know. Haha.

Was looking at facebook photo and I think I shrink a bit. I feel I look more build and got a little muscles last time. Now the muscles all hiding already. Haha. How to find them back? Also, I realize something while browsing through the photos. Although, it's seems like a small thing but it confirms something and along with other information, I hope the doubt in me will be gone and I can finally be back to normal.
As of now, most my friends have finished their examinations and it's time to have a great rest before starting intern. Just slightly more than 1 week of rest is not enough but what to do? I rather do intern than another 8au of module.

Yesterday is the last Maths paper of this semester and with that, I have done all I could. Now it is time for me to help myself for my final paper later in the evening. Last paper is also hard to study as the mood is not there already. Luckily, it shouldn't be a too tough paper and hope everything goes well.
Friends going for dinner tomorrow after their last paper. Don't think I can join them as they most likely will be at the west side. Feel very sian. Sometimes thinking too much is no good, the more you think, the more problems surface. I want to learn to stop thinking so much. Haha, what should I do?

Just finish voting for the first time. Hope what I did is correct and may the best team wins. Alright, 3 more papers and I am done for exams. Time to study.
Good quote from my friend. "One of the easiest way to stay happy is to let go for things that let you sad"
Hope WP wins Aljunied.

Today's first day of exam and I got 2 papers. Luckily I SU-ed Abstract Algebra, that module is seriously not easy and very difficult. OK, difficult for me at least.
Common behaviors observed during exam period. Firstly, can see people 'disappearing' from the online world. After exam, then is 见证奇迹的时候when people start coming back. Secondly, some friends ask for help in their work, I don't mind at all, actually I am very happy to help them but I very scare after this period, they very realistic and disappear. Feel very sian lor. Haha.

OK, tomorrow is polling day, don't really know which one to pick. How I hope my exam is not during this period, no time to go any rallies at all. Really feel like going to worker party rally, they got such a huge turnout. But I don't expect results to swing towards opposition much. I hope CST win the area he competing in.